all i have to do is to keep repeating what u said to me in my mind.
then i'll be able to do it.
*crosses my fingers and hope thats how it would be

i read halfway,
then i decided to stop.
i realised i cant go on,
i don't have the courage to do so.
i dont want to start all over again.
rahh!,
damn.
i dont want to lose it all now.
not after what i've been through to get to where i am today.
buzz off,lovebug

i see,
you are back to normal.
well,
so am i(:

i thought u knew.
aint it obvious?
i mean, u never told me
i knew.
but how was i going to tell you?
im sorry.
i dint mean for it to come out that way.
but, it's time u get it.
i know what you are hoping for.
how i wish you are too.
but,it's just isnt the case.
i've tried.
it's just isnt.
Patience,is not the key.
imsorry.



FINALLY FINSHED ART
passed up canvas and stuff.
*phew




im going to make it worth it.

i really thought i would be able to do it.
really.
until grace asked me something.
i said the answer unknowingly.
i was surprised at myself.
i...
i....
forget it,
i dont know how to continue this post anymore.
it's just,
i love you

再一次拥有
by gong shi jia ;kaira gong

我想念去年的冬天　下著雪的那一夜
你给的温柔　紧握的双手
温暖整个寒冬

失去了曾经的拥有　在你离开以后
带走了笑容　只留下寂寞
忘了幸福是什么
没有你的夜 特别的漆黑
只能闭上双眼去感觉
没有我的夜　谁在你身边
代替了那个从前

失去了曾经的拥有　在你离开以后
带走了笑容　只留下寂寞
忘了幸福是什么
没有你的夜 特别的漆黑
只能闭上双眼去感觉
没有我的夜　谁在你身边
代替了那个从前

能不能再听一次你说爱我
回到还在你怀里的时候
能不能让我　再一次拥有
曾属于我的温柔

能不能让我　再一次拥有
曾属于我的温柔

i got burnt today.
and it really hurts
it really does.
there are a zillion things i want to ask.
but,why are we worst than before now?
i've tried,
u ,however,dont seem to care.
why?
was it so easy for you?

i saw one today,
that was lost in that big green field,
just like me.
how nice,
if by the time i walked finished that path,
i would have finished the game of life.
yes,
it does makes the world go round.
but it makes mine stop.

to be able to capture,
what I could see and feel,
once more,
is what I've been waiting for.
why?
cuz i can't do it now.
it takes more than a miracle,
to make it happen.
if believing does help,
i would,
with all my heart.

what makes a man?
it makes me tear.

i rmb,
but you forgotten
)':

even if u race back now,
she wont be there anymore.

it's just going up,
walking that path,one step at a time,
and tumbling down.

there's something,
i dont know if i should say
or believe.

if i lay here,
if i just lay here,
would u lie with me,
and just forget the world?
..would you?