Tuesday, August 19, 2008,4:44 PM
i thought im done crying.
i really thought so.
but as i type out this post,
i knew im not quite done yet.
i hate waking up each day,
thinking im quite over him,
then always finding out new stuff about our breakup later in the day.
im really tired of it.
i hope today will be the last reason im hearing about the breakup.
today, i finally know the reason that got u thinking about our breakup.
no wonder u are so firm about it.
once again,
im lost.
back to square one.
as im taking my o'levels english oral today,
i just found it so difficult to concentrate.
my mind keeps drifting back to you.
conversation part was worst,
all i wanted to talk about is you.
every time im so confirm about starting all over again,
my world comes crumbling down whenever i hear facts.
facts that contribute.
this is more than i can take,
but i just have to accept it.
friends keep telling me
" since u are hurting so much, why dont u just take the first step? "
all i could reply was
" its okay, its over. everything after o levels then say."
but, knowing you through our relationship and through other people,
the chances are as little as 0.0001?
u sure se bu de?
i want to believe it so much,so so much.
but it aint easy.
i hate u both,bitches.
if only u knew how much i love you,
then maybe, u wont let me fall so badly.
no people,im not on a diet.
to walk down that dark path to home,
alone,
tonight,
it sucks.
